Sometimes, things just dont work smoothly

I just wanna have a normal lifestyle like what other people at my age is doing. Study. I just wants to continue my study. Is that wrong? I keep telling myself that it will be okay. Everything will be solved. I can continue study. Somehow, i think Im way to positive huh? Everything is not solved! I couldnt continue my study! Its August now, everyone is studying~ Even the latest intake has closed. What am I doing here? Rotting everyday at home. Im feeling like a stewpid creature rotting at home waiting for nothing! Miracles? Im waiting everyday since March. Fml. My dad is not gonna help me to find my transport. He's not that type of man. Mum and grandma is out of idea. Aunty doesnt even wanna help. All her words are just rubbish. Uncle wont help either, I think he needs help too. While me, you think I do nothing? I act like im doing nothing but im finding solution every single day. I have no transport to college at all. " You " said you can tag me alone to college for the few weeks until I find people who can tag along with me when I sit public transport. But now, what you response to me? " Im sorry, I couldnt help you " Since you couldnt help me, then dont give any hope to me at the first moment. Get it? Just shut your mouth and I'll thank you very much! I dont mind sitting public transport being a sandwich or either like the sardin in cans. I just need transport to the train station or either a friend that is going to the same college with me that can fetch me to attend college classes or a friend that is going to the same college with me and we can take public transport together.Of course he/she has to fetch me to the train station. I dont mind paying petrol fees back. What I want now is, I wants and I need to study! If there's a friend to come along that is 100 times better. This week is my last hope. Class will be start at 8 August. Miracles~ Can I trust you again?