Cny Outting

I know its kinda too late if I wish you guys Happy Chinese New Year now~ Sorry! I didnt mean to neglect my bloggie for 5 days..Im really busy with all the outtings..My outting schedule is full, full and FULL :X ( Im not showing off..So dont hit me :( ) I didnt went out on the first day, indeed Theng came and visit me~ She's the very first person for this year :) She didnt visit long cause she has some outting to do with her friends.. ( Her friend keep calling non stop! =.=" ) My first outting was on the 2nd day of CNY. Woke up early in the morning and off to granny's house :) I followed mummy to lots of relatives and her friends house. Its awesome cause the feeling off visiting peoples house is different. We gamble :X * o0ps * Having fun with the cousies and his friends..haha!
As usual, I will visit 1 of my relative every year~ This relative is quite special because I once has some complicated relationships with their son :X Okay, Im gonna stop the complicated relation and dont ask me anymore! T.T Please~ So, I went to their house the 3rd day of CNY. I was shock when I know that he was there.. ( he/him/his = the son ). I acted nothing at first but I was shock when I feel people looking or even staring at me when I step in the door of the house. I nod my head down and I just walking like a dumb dumb looking down towards the floor =.=" Meanwhile I saw a girl with few adults and few boys.I couldnt recognize his look o.0 so I didnt make any reaction.Later when they * the boys * send the girl and her family out. My mum and aunty ask " Who's the girl? Your relative? " The uncle answer " No, my son's girl and her family"
Im very surprise with the answer. I was thinking that I didnt saw him..but how come... In the end, he came back..I was surprise of his look >.<" He change alot in this 3 years! Really lots! Better looking compare to last time.Of course, I change alot compare with him within this 3 years..My hair grow longer~ Im taller, slimmer, and Im getting more fair day by day! ( cause I didnt go out for this few months? or because I go out only at night. haha..lolx ) Oh, for your info~ we didnt meet even once between this 3 years and we didnt even contact each other.
I dont know why I dont feel good after we saw each other :( I feel bad of course sad..I feel sorry to him >.<" I know we both have wrong or perhaps Im the only one who is wrong 3 years ago..I can only say sorry even he wont wanna be friends with me anymore T.T I couldnt do anything much..I need to do the decision 3 years ago.I know Im selfish towards myself..I choose my studies and neglect him..No way to turn back anymore..I know I know..Im very clear about all this.He will scold me~ or even slap me I think..I know T.T Im very wrong..I exchange my future and studies with him.. Im sorry..Till now, I can only say things that I didnt finish saying.. "I really do like you 3 years ago. I did plan to be a good girlfriend.. I really did..No chance for me to do anything now..No use too..I know you couldnt read this..but I do hope you and your girl will last long forever..Dont so flower heart like last time. Take good care of yourself alright? :) "